it was eleanor roosevelt who said that no one could make you feel inferior without your consent… most of the time, it’s not anybody else’s fault but in the end, it’s always yourself that makes you feel the most down.
we are capable of such extreme things. we are all unstable in some way. in one minute, once could choose to die, in another, one could choose to take another else’s life… in a half a minute, an apology could be made that would change how the lives of others would run… in a second, that last hug will be what we would carry on for tens of years before seeing each other again. Human beings are capable of so much, that everything just seems so unfathomable…
last friday, i was in greenbelt three with friends, and i just had to take the time to separate a bit, because i had to think… about where this would go, and how this would end. You know? it’s kind of anticlimactic that it happens, but then… when you’re too happy about something, you start to think — what if that happiness was taken away from you? or in some cases… what if you took yourself away from that happiness, what would happen? would those people even matter? would YOU even matter?
it’s the distress that makes us all equally VULNERABLE. it’s just that some people are better in hiding what insecurities they have… in my case, i’m too vulnerable — i give emphasis on things too much.
this past week has been confusing, at the very least. on one hand, I’m already well from my sickness, but on the other, i think my relationships are on the rocks — it may be my fault or someone else’s. idk.
sometimes, i regret things that aren’t supposed to be regretted… idk…
most of the time, i just have to keep reminding myself that i can do this, and that everything will be alright, and the people that matter to me now will matter to me forever. :)
im so glad that everything seems to be shaping up. the more i let go of my insecurities, the happier i am.
come to think of it… it’s always so admirable about someone who trusts in someone so much that they’re truly confident on what they mean to the person.right?
well now, i hafta sleep. long day tomorrow, it’s the start of my jam-packed week.
im so… weird.
as usual. haha :P
to cyrus zalamea and eduardo gaspar, you guys rock. benjamin marinas, thanks. amanda palileo, thanks for a great day… ST, still, a million thanks.and dani, for trying to turn my frown upside-down, always. racela abundo for everything.
these people are priceless to me, and I will remember, treasure them the rest of my life.
they’re who I am.
they’re all i’ve got.
i guess that’s the wrap-up. :)
believe in the best.
Luna Lovegood said “the things we lose have a way of getting back to us, just not in the way we expect it to be…”
don’t be afraid to let go. sometimes, it’s the only way to move on, but it’ll come back, one way or another.
it can even help you figure out who those people are that give as much importance to what you had as how you cherished it.
be happy.
not because you have to, but because you want to. :)
